Is this what life is really going to be like?
Hi guys, I’m 21 years old and am an anxiety sufferer. I first started suffering with anxiety when I was 19. I was always the kind of girl who after high school never really had many friends, would rather be at home than out partying and aged 19 is when it hit me.
After high school, I think is when it really started. I always found it really hard to make friends because I am really shy and don’t really like talking to new people so age 19 is when I really started to struggle. I was always crying, too scared to go anywhere, I felt so alone but didn’t want any help. I thought it was a phase that would just go away but it didn’t and unluckily for my family, my sister started suffering at the same time, aged 16.
Me and my sister suffer with social anxiety. There are so many types of an anxiety and this is just one of them. We always worry about embarrassing ourselves, we worry about what people will think, we feel anxious in social situations, we worry about behaving anxiously when public speaking, parties and evening eating and drinking in front of other people.
Here’s some stats for you! 1 in 6 people suffer with anxiety, this means 5 people in your class right now, could be suffering with anxiety. When i discovered I was an anxiety sufferer, I never did get help. I was so worried people would think that I was mental, that I wasn’t normal, I always had the shakes and feeling sick, but thanks to new job opportunities and new life experiences I am starting to get better.
Remember it is ok to be upset and it is ok to ask for help. I always look back now and wish I had taken the help when it was offered, or asked for help when I felt much worse. I really thought I was all on my own with this issue but you are not alone!
I had great support in my life at the time, my sister who knew exactly what I was going through, my boyfriend who didn’t leave me at the first site of an anxiety attack, he stuck by me! My mum and dad, always offering me help even if I didn’t take it, but always there to give me a hug when I needed one.
Think you might have anxiety? Visit www.anxietyuk.org.uk this helped me discovered what kind of anxiety I had and made me feel so much better for knowing I wasn’t alone, they also have a helpline if you want to speak to someone. Or speak to someone your trust, a friend, a teacher, a neighbour. There is help out there, you don’t have to do this by yourself.